Tonight was a super blood wolf moon eclipse. It was beautiful and magical. I keep saying this year has started so differently than last. Something about this year made me feel like this would be a magical year filled with God’s blessings. Tonight magnified that feeling.
As I drove home with my son we looked up and saw a magnificent sight. A beautiful full and red moon burned through the dark of night. I quickly parked my car and ran into the house to grab our camera (yes, we still own an old school one of those). It was Mark’s camera and I was not used to using it, so it took a few attempts to get the picture. We got it though. That isn’t what made it magical.
When I opened my door I was greeted by a butterfly. No, not a moth that one would normally see at night but a butterfly. It guided me to a spot to get a perfect view of this rare moon. As I looked up to that spectacular glow in the sky, I was filled with awe, peace, and a connection to the world around me. Then there was a slight cool breeze that hugged me and I knew this moment was something special.
I understood why people would sit and just look up at the sky and talk to the moon. As beautiful as it is, it still looks so lonely in a sky of stars. So many days I feel the same since Mark passed. I felt so connected to the moon. Yet, it still finds a way to shine and show the beauty of the dark. It really did feel like the moon could feel what I felt and listen so carefully to my thoughts. I could feel the scars of my past slowly fade and a greater sense of peace and contentment wash over me. I felt an overwhelming sense of hope that the future still holds many surprises I have yet to discover.
Yes, 2019 is special. 2017 tried to break me and it almost did. 2018 was a year of growth and really trying to find my way. 2019 is a year of letting the woman who has evolved on this journey be like this rare moon and find my way to shine through the darkness and know there is beauty there. An unknown author stated, “Everyone wants to be the sun that lights up your life. But I’d rather be the moon so I can shine on you during your darkest hour when the sun isn’t around.” Yes, there is magic in the moon.